Something, Anything

Forgetting what it was like
Longing for it
Missing it
Wishing things were the same as they used to be
Knowing they never will be
Seeing the same face from before
But knowing it’s different now
So close yet so far away
Having what it was you used to
But it’s not the same
Something’s different
Just not the same
Enjoying every second of it
But hating yourself for enjoying it
Things aren’t the same
It’s not what it used to be
No matter how hard you try
It’s time to move on to something better
Something
Anything better

The smile
The embrace
So inviting
So full of shame
Is there something better?
Anything
Will it be the same?
Different
That’s the way it is
Forgetting it
Erasing it from the mind
It’ll never be the same
Never the same
Always different
Something
Anything

For You Tell Me So

I am sick.
I am wrong.
I am a threat.
I am a sinner.
I am immoral.
I am a defect.
I am mutated.
I am a pervert.
I am shameful.
I am abnormal.
I am unnatural.
I am disgusting.
I am distasteful.
I am shameless.
I am destructive.
I am compulsive.
I am sacrilegious.
I am just not right.
I am a delinquent.
I am promiscuous.
I am incompatible.
I am blasphemous.
I am an abomination.

I should be saved.
I should be healed.
I should be converted.
I should commit suicide.
I should be condemned.
I should be hospitalized.
I should be punished by death.

I have a sexual disorder.
I have committed a crime.

I am not what you say I am.
I should not be who you say I should be.
I have not done what you say I have done.
I will not be who you say I should be.
I am who I say I am.

I have an amazing personality.
I have an open heart.
I have an open mind.
I have aspirations.
I have dreams.

I should not have to be afraid.
I should be treated equally.
I should not be oppressed.
I should not have to hide.
I should not be criticized.

I am your daughter.
I am your neighbor.
I am not a criminal.
I am not diseased.
I am not a sinner.
I am your friend.
I am emotional.
I am optimistic.
I am beautiful.
I am amazing.
I am an artist.
I am a fighter.
I am creative.
I am natural.
I am human.
I am honest.
I am caring.
I am loving.
I am sweet.
I am proud.
I am moral.
I am smart.
I am not ill.
I am loyal.
I am gay.